Staring at the clouds as they pass by
a scary thought creeps in my minds eye
Why are you here? What’s you’re purpose?
What is inside, what is beyond the surface?
All these years of working and living yet I sit and stare
all the directions life has taken me but the destination is where?
Am I bound to be n the clouds or hell when I die
or is my body going to be food for every worm and fly.
Is everything I learned in church a lie?
Then what’s the point of being good, being alive, should I even try?
I’ve never had love yet I’ve been loved
I’ve loved but instead of reciprocating my love was mugged
by the criminal that is disappointment
I’m a hopeless man, no passion, no goals, no mission
If I was in a fight I’d tap for submission.
Now I grab this noose and stare at the clouds
for the last time
What is a hopeless man worth?
A man who goes through the motions
with no clear emotion
An energizer bunny always on the go
but when asked the destination, he doesn’t know.
I left a letter in my apartment for my family to see
I’m a hopeless man and the world doesn’t need me
I was never the worst nor was I the best
It’s time to end this middle life and go to eternal rest
#PoetryChallenge Day 5