Feel some ways

Feel some ways

                      faded and  leaning on the toilet seat

i feel some ways

failing at my midterm test

i feel some ways

finally seeing you in that exam room

i felt some way

facing my mortality even though i want you eternally

i feel some ways

                                                           falling for you so suddenly

i feel so scared

 

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Why everyone has anxiety

Why everyone has anxiety

I’m not a psychologist, don’t quote me as such. But I have thoughts and ideas since you’re here i’m assuming you want to hear em so let’s spill the beans. On a macro level I’ve noticed that there’s a rise in mental health issues but on a more micro level among my friends I’ve learned that there’s a Huuuuuug *Trump voice* rise in anxiety. I’m not here to pull stats out of my ass and pretend that i’ve done extensive research, you can go read some other blog or textbook for that. As a curious person I decided: why not ask people why anxiety is on the rise and I even talked to some of my friends that go through it. I was able to have a few conversations and even run a poll asking people “why is there a rise in anxiety?” I came to a weird yet strangely obvious answer, both linked to the idea of perfection…social media and family dynamics. Yes those are the 2 main reasons everyone is anxious. I hope some sociology and psychology majors are doing research on these two factors because it’s clear as hell.

For Social media it makes all kinds of sense…just to give y’all a prefix, I’m not talking about generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) cause you need a doc to give that title i’m talking about day to day anxiety that would and could be seen as “normal”. Social media makes sense (i’ve written several times about it) because every day we try to put out an image of the best version of ourselves and send an illusion of perfection. People literally delete entire galleries of pictures because of a low amount of likes…its pathetic, but it contributes to the idea that “if i’m not perfect, i’m not needed”. You understand what kind of pressure and stress that puts on someone? When you look at another IG pic of someone’s perfect relationship, vacation and adventures you feel some type of way. Self doubt, perfectionism, self-conscious, excessive worry about how you’re perceived within the platform you express yourself in…all of those are signs of anxiety. When everyones life looks fuckin blessed what are you gonna do? Compare and feel anxious about your own.

With the poll I did, I found that family dynamics was the second highest reason why our generation is more anxious, this surprised me. So I went into deep thought and looked at reasons why this was picked…For the most part, my friends answered the poll. Most of my friends have divorce in their family (including me) so the family dynamic is not “typical” or “normal” whatever the hell normal means nowadays. Then it lead me to think: what is a normal family dynamic? Especially in Canada, and even more among minorities (most of my friends aren’t white). I found out that common law marriages are on the rise in Canada, second marriages are common and the nuclear family prototype is slowly being phased out. How does this cause anxiety? Cause we live in a society where what we see represented as “perfect”, the wife, husband and kids prototype isn’t a reality! How would you feel if everyday they ask you about your father and you aint seen that man in 16 years? How would you feel if they asked about your biological parents but you’ve been adopted? How would you feel about having step siblings you hate or have never even meet? Anxious. The media and society has lied to us and pressed us on the idea of “perfection” that doesn’t exist in the world we live in.

Those are the reasons everyone has anxiety.

The most important lesson (from the Chyna/Rob saga)

The most important lesson (from the Chyna/Rob saga)

The finesse was legendary it was one for the ages. I’m not one to engage in gossip or plunge myself into stupid non relevant things that take away my time and attention…Jk I waste hella time on social media. Yes, i have time for this fuckery. So when you crawl out of this rock you’ve been hiding underneath (shout out Patrick Star) I’ll summarize the story. A stupid guy called Rob Kardashian decided to date and impregnate a former stripper who is the baby mother of her sister’s boyfriend, the now infamous Blac Chyna. To be perfectly clear, he decided to date HIS SISTER’S BOYFRIEND’S BABY MAMA, yes this is some soap opera shit. Its literally like drinking bleach and expecting your vital organs to metabolize it into regular yellow piss instead of killing you! So here is Rob a fat sloppy depressed guy who finds happiness in a woman who’s whole career revolves around having sex and babies with rich men. She is a prostitute without the label (some could say that’s a good thing). So Eienstein Kardashian in his infinite wisdom found out that Chyna was playing him like the Mask Off flute. Literally fucking dudes in the house he bought letting her side dudes pipe her out like a plumber in his versace robe, using his cars, jewelry and everything else. Rob’s twitter basically detailed all of this and I don’t have the patience to recount a bitter mans L (p.s. Revenge porn aint cool, but Chyna’s kitty is surprisingly nice). Men coming in and out of her house, multiple times a day but that had me thinking…what overarching lesson can we learn from this and why does this matter?

In my extensive research (lol), I have come to learn the common day perception of a thot has been evolving. Not long ago I put up a poll on twitter and the question was: a nineteen year old with twenty sexual partners, is she a thot? To my surprise 60% voted no, this shows a major cultural shift. I say that to say this: Chyna is not the one to be blamed in this scenario. She is not innocent by any means but she was doing what was in her nature, some women are more sexual than others and are willing to do more with many men. You can’t expect a fish to fly like an eagle or a burger to be as healthy as an orange. My award for the biggest L goes to Rob, with his child being a close second. And that is the lesson to learn here, you can’t be surprised when people are what they have shown themselves to be. You can’t be shocked when someone acts like a thot (that hoe over there) with her ex’s and then turns out to be one with you. You can’t be stunned when a cheater continues to cheat. It’s in their nature. This goes to my main message, people will show you who they are, in their past and present actions. When you see someone’s true colors, believe them! To try to change someone at their core is laughable. Buy them a lambo, move them out the hood, vote them president, it doesn’t matter they’re going to be who they were from the jump. I know love is blind but it shouldn’t be ignorant. Rob catch this L, you have 18 years to deal with this bullshit soup you cooked yourself in.

Y’all keep Dream Kardashian in y’all prayers.

More blogs on the way.